its been remarkable but not over yet ... what started off as a wait, as a moment of freedom after a long and tiring semester, at a time when i could do anything i wanted, i chose to stay alone .. something that i always do ... but this has been different ... this one time I chose to disconnect myself from all human existence ... failed miserably, thanks to the Internet and the phone ... but i still managed to not see or involve myself into any facial verbiage .... in short, not met one of my species for sometime now... had to turn down two holiday parties and a few other casual invitations.... in a world that's so busy and running out of time, this was my only chance to spend a few days in my own company ... but then it is now that I realize, I was not alone!!!
this whole journey in time, came off really unexpected... it all started pretty much according to the plan which was to spend quality time with some good music and the long list of recommended movies waiting to be watched... but somewhere in between I got consumed by my own interests and a few other things started to gain traction!!
with time, i gained unfamiliarity with my own voice... my eardrums signaled strange notes every time the vocals were active... i developed this ability to surprise myself with my own voice... a few times that I did talk on the phone, was fun ... my vocal cords bathed in honor, because they had my undivided attention for the first time... i was giving them so much thought now... all these years they were only some instruments to make sounds for others to understand ... but now every move they made was being noticed ... i felt sorry, for they belonged to a man who dint talk much ... :P
but it has been the last few days that have been strange ... I have felt the presence of a few forces that I had never felt before ... every change around me that goes away unnoticed in the first place, comes back to haunt me when I realize it... for example, finger imprints on my window pane that were not mine ... lights turned on in rooms that I never visited ... these changes would have been easily attributed to my fellow inhabitants without much attention ... but they definitely invoke a stream of thought now because I do not remember to have caused them... I will be very happy to accept that its my forgetful living that brings this upon me... :P
but then have you ever noticed gravity instead of the water falling over... have you even given a conspicuous thought to hunger before making that first move towards the food.. there is so much that happens around us ... but in the midst of all that we see and remember, we fail to take note of the bigger picture in the smallest of things ....
adios!
this whole journey in time, came off really unexpected... it all started pretty much according to the plan which was to spend quality time with some good music and the long list of recommended movies waiting to be watched... but somewhere in between I got consumed by my own interests and a few other things started to gain traction!!
with time, i gained unfamiliarity with my own voice... my eardrums signaled strange notes every time the vocals were active... i developed this ability to surprise myself with my own voice... a few times that I did talk on the phone, was fun ... my vocal cords bathed in honor, because they had my undivided attention for the first time... i was giving them so much thought now... all these years they were only some instruments to make sounds for others to understand ... but now every move they made was being noticed ... i felt sorry, for they belonged to a man who dint talk much ... :P
but it has been the last few days that have been strange ... I have felt the presence of a few forces that I had never felt before ... every change around me that goes away unnoticed in the first place, comes back to haunt me when I realize it... for example, finger imprints on my window pane that were not mine ... lights turned on in rooms that I never visited ... these changes would have been easily attributed to my fellow inhabitants without much attention ... but they definitely invoke a stream of thought now because I do not remember to have caused them... I will be very happy to accept that its my forgetful living that brings this upon me... :P
but then have you ever noticed gravity instead of the water falling over... have you even given a conspicuous thought to hunger before making that first move towards the food.. there is so much that happens around us ... but in the midst of all that we see and remember, we fail to take note of the bigger picture in the smallest of things ....
adios!
